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 I used to dream of theft. I was a
lot younger, at school, and it wasn't me doing the stealing. I was the child
who was more adult, more aware and travelled. I was the legend, the scruffy
closed-eyed kid on film, listening to the confession of some scared girl, with
all the exquisite compassion of greater knowledge, the sense of tender, godly,
caring power over someone who intimidated me completely. I haven't forgotten
yet what it felt like. Listen,
I have an idea for us both. Wrap up in thick fabric, twisted, scratching
wiry hessian, bound with cheap rope, lined with silk. If I fall, the silk
presses itself gently against my skin. The outermost layer tears a little,
gets damaged, and bits start to shred and fall where I'm treading. It's
coarse and itchy: cloth is too soft a word, but cloth feels good under foot,
torn rough cloth under my feet, more matted pieces of useless cloth, layers
of it, inch on inch. We should lie down. We can roll in hessian, scratch
into each of our backs a lumpy red pattern on pink, springing blood to the
touch. 1995
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